Prisoner gives Guantanamo court first account of CIA abuse https://apnews.com/article/cuba-crime-war-crimes-baltimore-al-qaida-3bdb752fee28c0dd06b2803045dff553
E past stuff fiddling in my brain, massaging, consentual nonconsent, drugs
"You knew you wanted this when you came in, babe." (And he *is* the kind of guy who can say 'babe' at just the right time to make you quiver like your bowstring snapped, he's growly and definitely enjoys sadism.)
that phrase coming to haunt me with just the juxtaposition of aching deep inside while letting yourself feel powerless properly, and feeling filled up after a sense of subjugation like that is conveyed.
fuck, I miss him. and I'm a bad fuckin' person for missing him like a complete perv in too many ways.
I'm not normally into taking a risk but life is complicated, amirite?
"Rule Number Three: Fucked up situations call for fucked up solutions."
ha ha, only terrified hell cut off contact with me 🙃
This is what we call "a flimsy pretext" and/or "a NLRB complaint waiting to happen".
The tweet in the screenshot is at https://twitter.com/rainofterra/status/1445914236668895236?s=21
domme gaps, MH, dissociative
well, all reports in suggest wife's happy, and we're both less frustrated.
this is something I'll work on consciously enjoying after, well, about a hundred other things to fix.
in the meantime, coping mechanisms are working as intended
good enough.
just feel, eugh, honestly, if I think about it too hard.
so I won't. 🙃 for now.
vague insecurities, weight & body, just more venting rly
my wife is tall and thin and I'm average and getting chubbier now, and I was never a simple woman to live with, and...
shit, I guess I really am terrified she's gonna leave me.
there's stuff to make that less likely but
all of it is extremely unpleasant (and potentially dangerous for other reasons)
and
fuck 😣
ex E mental anguish, vague uniform fetish? probably Asian culture exploitation TBH 😔 don't read it
blarrrrrrrrgh
trying to be a good friend when you still want to get a wrecking from someone is
complex
at least in my tiny head
doesn't help that the wife teases me about it either 😳
anyway, so that's why I was up several hours late last night thinking about him in a Kamakura era bugyo uniform (and myself in a similarly dated kimono) I found in historical drawings 💤
srsly nobody, just a perv girl
most posts will be "fuck that's hot" kinda responses or pornboosts, don't like, don't follow
(no, those pics aren't me, I fucking wish. I ran stuff through the face randomizer. sick of having an elephant face lol)